The beauty of death
Oh death every time you touch me you remind me of the impermanence of life. The ever changing reality of life. As im going about my life you creep up on me and whisper in my ear. At first you are my enemy you come and take all that I love. The pain of separation is too much for me to bear. No matter how many times you visit you always catch me off guard. You come and rip me open and I fall into disappear. I sit and watch all the layers of emotions, my thoughts that taunt me and my heart rips open. My throat tightens and I fall into the depths of grief. The truth is I can see you are a gift you show me how much I love, you remind me of the fleetingness of life. You remind me of how time does not exist. How the illusion of time makes us believe tomorrow will surly come. Whats funny is when I feel your whisper time slows down and I take in all the joy and moments before you take their hand. You are my greatest teacher the only one who truly reminds me to appreciate life.
You remind me how much I resist life, how much I try to control life. You take me to the depths of grief where I have no choice than to let go and fall into complete helplessness. You bring with you a reminder of my power to love, you bring with you patience and connection and as I sit here in floods of tears i’m reminded of my connection to all others going through the same grief.
It’s all happening at the same time, pain, love, anger, joy, sadness, fear you open my heart to it all. You do not even ask if im ready you come with a force that pushes me. Your force reminds me of my powerless and as I try to fight you, you save me from falling back into ignorance. You are final and that pushes me to the remembrance of the eternal I. You force me to realise the messiness of life and let go of trying to be perfect wanting things be be a certain way, wanting things to be different. I cant help but love you death, you teach me what I can not let go of with out your touch. You open my heart and I see it all as it is. All of my resistance un ravels and all things I dislike suddenly I fall in love with.
You show me all the ways in which the mind keeps me from fully accepting all of life. I don’t know how it’s possible to feel, sad, joy, anger, acceptance pain, love, appreciation, grief all at he same time. You are the magnificent only you can teach me all of this. Most of all you show me the truth of the one looking back you teach me that which falls aways is the temporary form of that which sees. You are the destroyer of illusion of separation.
Oh death I don’t have to like you but I do love you, because you teach me to love all of life and you too are part of it.